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(oil painting on canvas, 16X20, 2003)
"Transvestite male in a gold corset"
Gender issues... Nurture vs. Nature... Growing up, I myself oftentimes felt more like an androgynous being rather than a female child. I've never thought that deep down inside I was a dude or anything like that. I just felt more like an 'it'.
As a kid I rarely felt comfortable playing with the girls because I found myself struggling coming up with things to talk to them about. I only had a few girlfriends, and got along much better with boys. One time when I was about four my family went on a long vacation to the sea shore. There I became friend with a little boy. We spend every day together and got to know each other as well as two little humans could. So imagine my mom's surprise when my buddy's mother told her that her son confided in her that he was still trying to figure whether I was a boy or a girl.
There was another even more comical situation when my appendix got inflamed and in the rural hospital the doctor informed my mom that their men's suite was full, but since her boy was little he thought that the women wouldn't object if he were to place me in their suite. Meanwhile, I was standing right in front of him wearing a skirt!
I got used to being called a boy and I liked being one of the guys. I thought that my thought process got altered having spent so much time in the company of males. In my mind nurture was the clear winner of the 'nurture vs. nature' debate. Imagine how surprised I was when my little son showed zero interest in stuffed animals (despite my best efforts) and went straight for the toy cars as soon as he could choose for himself. With all the teddy bears collecting dust I finally realized that certain things are simply programmed in us by nature. Not that it matters. Whoever and whatever we are all that truly matters is that we remain human in the best sense of that word.
"Being a woman is of special interest only to aspiring male transsexuals. To actual women, it is simply a good excuse not to play football."
"Even if man could understand women he still wouldn't believe it."
"What is most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine."