Natasha's Online Memorials

In times of tragedy the question that people ask the most is Why? and I used to be no different whenever someone close to me died. Grieving is a selfish process and eventually it turns the question 'why?' into 'why me?', which makes a person feel that by taking someone he loves God has some kind of a personal vendetta against him. Such feelings are good when it comes to reexamining your life, but they don't make grieving any easier. I learned from personal experience that the human brain is an amazing organ that tries its best to assist its owner in adjusting to whichever situation the owner might be in. For example, mine was instrumental in reassessing my feelings towards death. I've lost a lot of people that I've loved in my relatively short life and I was feeling overwhelmed with emotions. I especially suffered knowing that many of them were taken prematurely.

I felt like I was wronged by God. I kept on thinking as to why God would put people in my life only to take them away from me. My thoughts were eating me alive and I knew that I had to reexamine my thinking. At first I realized that God must think that I'm a pretty strong person to make my life what it is. Furthermore, I finally understood that if anything I should feel privileged that I got a chance to get to know someone who was placed on this Earth for such a short time. I got a chance to get a glimpse of their soul and to feel their love and kindness. My new attitude made me realize that the best thing I can do is to honor their memory and to never forget all the special times we shared.