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(oil & collage painting on canvas, 16X20, 2009)
Abstract paintings are not exactly my thing. I don't think in abstract terms and I don't see the world in abstract forms.
Even when I was little I was prone to visual matrixing when it came to any types of indistinguishable shapes. I saw faces and figures everywhere; in the vanes of the autumn leaves, faded marks on my bedroom wallpaper, paint cracks on our bathroom door. So, as you can imagine, when I set out to do an abstract piece of art I knew that I would be up for a challenge.
I decided that I would create my painting based on my perception of an average modern woman. However, just as I do with a lot of my other work I managed to make it mostly about me. As I started 'collaging' I realized that I was creating an abstract portrait of myself. I know it sounds like some kookie nonsense that a presumptuous artistic individual might say, but at the time it just made sense to me. When I thought of my personality in terms of shapes and colors I envisioned myself as layered (like onions or Shrek!); mostly blue and calm; but with a bright, crazy, and happy inside that only those close to me get to know.
Was I so self-obsessed I couldn't even create an abstract painting without making it about me? The truth is that I do find myself quite interesting. I believe all people should. I personally see myself as a little piece of the Universe. I'm a sample of humanity, which means that the more I study myself – the more I learn about people in general. Also, I conceder myself a visual writer of sorts. When I paint I try to tell a story with my art and good writers usually tend to draw inspiration from their own life experiences and their personalities. Then how could it be inappropriate to bring oneself into one's art? …even if it is abstract.
"One reassuring thing about modern art is that things can't be as bad as they are painted."
"When science finally locates the center of the universe, some people will be surprised to learn they're not it."
"The moment you cheat for the sake of beauty, you know you're an artist."