"Transvestite male in a gold corset"
(oil painting on canvas, 16X20, 2003)
"Being a woman is of special interest only to aspiring male transsexuals. To actual women, it is simply a good excuse not to play football."
Fran Lebowitz
"Even if man could understand women he still wouldn't believe it."
AW Brown
"What is most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine"
Susan Sontag
I’ve always been very interested in gender issues. I spend quite a lot of time thinking about what being a woman means to me. At times I feel like it’s just a role that I play in this life. I often feel like an ‘it’ an entity that contains both genders in one. Most people that don’t know me well find me very feminine and people who do know me well always say that my way of thinking and my behavior are very masculine.
It doesn’t make me transgendered because the last thing I would want to have is an external genitalia, (no offense guys), but it does make me think about who I actually am. All the ‘girlie’ things have always seem foreign to me, which is really ironic since for the past 15 years I have been sporting a very ‘girly’ appearance. It possesses a problem because openly admitting that I find the company of most women dull makes me a traitor to my gender, whereas being ‘one-of-the-guys’ in a company of men while still expecting all the perks that come from being a female makes me a hypocrite. The good thing about all of this is realizing that many other people struggle with similar issues and struggling with who we are makes us human.
